..And I get stuck up all these hours
I lie awake , every second gambles
insane contemplations , bluntness showers
a steadfast heart , and my mind rambles ....

I look into the past , to places never been
and the world seems to pace down
I yearn for it all , for bliss never seen
a craving to quench , a wish to drown ....

I see my eyes closed , I hear my breath
and long for a better meaning in life
today , tomorrow , for each day till death
for evanescence of hatred , for recession of strife ....

I behold myself as someone I ain't
as someone in the past , I could've wanted to be
the clouds darken , the feelings faint
and wander around for a better lee ....

"The past is gone" , and i hide behind
beneath the thunder , I hear the skies
*God's own ways* , I strive to find
the mirror reflects a dream in my eyes ....

The heavens envision , and I so deviate
A determined desire burning inside
Fuelled by fascination the reflections so create
A step aside *Let my heart decide* ....

I wanna runaway , for courage I own
the magnanimity of thoughts , for mentations that prod
I'll reach the crown , for the seed once sown
for the feeling I'll get in the abode of God ....

*I'll give one life to be there
for the prized promise I see in my eyes
and sacrifice all happiness , for the world won't care
to dream of a dream where it all lies .....*

It now rains heavier , but the rainbows glaze
*..And I won't let my voice sound hollow
I'll look up for the days , and will run new ways
for wherever I'll go , my dreams will follow ....*

As I take a stare into your eye
the thoughts in my mind pass me by
a look back , but I don't care
words never mean 'em while you're there ..

Ain't lasting forever the imperium I behold
I see the tracks turn , it's our friendship you sold
so curse the clouds , for I take a step ahead
Ain't any stopping me , the feelings are dead ..

I wanna look above , and see the clear sky
but it's still far away , the murk , the wry
I sense you're standstill , no angel would churn
your jealousy within , ah you're gonna crash and burn ..

You scream , you cry , no howl i hear
the devil would come , and take you there
to the island of the numb , and leave you alone
you'd be the king , without a kingdom , without a throne ..

so lose me , for our love doesn't exist anymore ..
hate me , for the trust I put in you ..
deceive me , for I'm still the man I used to be ..
and love me , for I'm never gonna look back again ..